Monday, December 28, 2015

I've come a long way baby!

A dear friend of mine posted this image on my FB page. I was going to respond on FB but decided it was good enough to share here. 

I'm pretty proud of how far I have come!

 Depression , btw, hits me regardless how I'm feeling or what I'm doing in my life. I don't get depressed cuz I hate my life or myself. It's a chemical misfiring in my brain. 

This is what I have been working towards for many many years. I'm not there yet. Not by a long shot.  But at least I'm that much closer to liking myself let alone loving myself.  U know, I lost who I was for many many years. Didn't have any idea. Was one of the darkest times in my life.  Now I know that I can be ME , while being mother, grandmother, friend, daughter, sister and so on 

I can't say I'm half way there, but i have started and been working diligently day by day , sometimes hour by hour and even still moment by moment; to get as far as I have come so far! Believe me when I say I have come far!!! I no longer HATE myself. I no longer do nearly as much negative self talk. "You are stupid" "you are fat" "idiot" etc. that's almost completely gone, thanks to my bff Diane. When she heard me call myself stupid out loud,  she said to me "hey! Don't talk to my friend that way!"  And now I hear her voice in my head whenever I start the self loathing behaviors. 
Thank you Diane! 
And thank you Neeta for posting this on my page! Love you guys!! 

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